THE TALES OF LIVING

Hello Dolls,

It's been a while since last. But I've been busy working in the office and being lame. I sit in the office all day listening to music and working, while I drink way to much coffee. The being lame part is that I've recently enjoyed preparing my breakfasts before going to sleep at night. Chopping vegetables into small pieces for my morning omelette. The morning omelette is a new thing too.

However, I found some great new music. I seem to be stuck on this electro track which I can't seem to get out of.

I heard someone say the other day on the TV that " You can't learn how to be an adult. It is something that just happens to you."

I'm not sure if this is true. I do not think that there is a picture perfect mold on how to grow up. I think that it's an individual story for each and ever one of us. I even believe that some people never truly grow up, not in the sense that they stay childish. But in the sense that they do not make the personal realizations that they would need to. They do not expand and excel their minds and their subjective&objective views on oneself as a person.

In a nutshell growing up is to improve yourself as a person until you reach a certain level where you are viewed as an adult. Really the most significant difference between a child and an adult is that the adult has the ability to further view herself or himself from a more objective perspective and improve ones flaws. Therefor, if someone does not come to the realizations necessary and do not improve ones skill to view oneself from a more objective perspective, you never truly are able to grow up. Achieving this, is in my opinion, a matter of challenging yourself and to truly step out of your own comfort zone.

Sorry for not writing anything in a while. I do have good reasons, it's been Christmas and New Years and right after that I went to Berlin. I got back from Berlin two days ago, in Berlin I started feeling quite a bit under the weather. I now have a raving fever and a very sour throat. The weather in Berlin did not help, it was snow&icy the whole time.
So at the time I'm recovering at home hoping to get out of the illness as soon as possible.

I'm been thinking a bit about life lately, realizing that are certain steps I need to do in order to move forward/grow up. Yesterday for example I took my two lip piercings out, it just feel like it was the right time to. They are just the sort of things you can't hold on to forever, because in life you need to change. Change is a funny thing, it always happen no matter if you'd like it to or not, the only thing you can do is embrace it.

I've been thinking a lot about my future lately. In Sweden you go to school and then you graduate (like I did this spring) and then you have the choice to apply to Uni, cruse around or start working. Life is so much easier when you are in school you have a direction and you know what to do, you have a good way to pile the days and to get on. When you graduate you lose that security and I find myself questioning everything I do. I don't have the security of school any more and therefor life seems harder, but in reality it's all about life changes and you have to change with it.

Song of the day: Bright Eyes - Laura Laurent (sometimes I feel like a Laura Laurent)