On my way out to a party: The First Time In A Long Time.

I'm not the club kid I once use to be, I guess because I like myself more now - if that makes any sense at all?

To me (amongst other things) parties represent the way I use to be, which can be described with a quote:

"She'll settle for anything, that'll make her brain slow down or stop"

I guess I've grown up, grown out of it, grown stronger. That's probably good but it makes me feel a little bit more self-conscious at parties - now I actually care about people’s opinions and would prefer that they like me.

Compared to before when I just cared about how to run as far into the fog as possible.